My poor Dear Lady, I feel so bad for you. All is wearing on my heart and mind, also. America is not the Country I served 11 years in Navy. It makes little since anymore.
Here's a hope: Although I was not a Trump supporter because of his in-articulate speeches and gaffes, I've come to believe he is genuine and truly wants to, "Make America Great Again". He may not fulfill every promise while in because Congress, but he will do what he can with his background of putting the BEST people in place. That's my hope...it could be yours. Hope is all we have now.
I feel better today. The convention speeches cheered me up a little. :)