Understand. But your direction leads ultimately to unbelief. You just don’t admit it yet.
Au contraire. No one can create life but God. But why he wanted to watch His creature writhe in pain is beyond comprehension. Why He ordered His Son to be crucified defies all reason and it did no good. He allowed a hideous murder of His Son whom He claimed to love. If that is love, what is indifference? He didn’t stop Hitler by sending him an heart attack. Or Pol Pot, or Ivan the Terrible, or Henry VIII, Stalin, Lenin, Castro, Che Guevera, Ho Chi Min and so on and so forth.