And my VA doc wonders why I am riddled with anxiety and depression after fighting my entire life to prevent this sh!t.
I understand your frustration. God bless and keep you. Thank you for your service
You screwed up, you trusted the government.
Prayers that your anxiety is effectively addressed. Understood that it is a real thing, can be debilitating. Especially when one observes all the things that are out of reach for control. Government is going to do what it will, and pretty much no amount of concern, effort, belief, etc. has any effect on that whatsoever. There is a larger social dynamic playing out as it has many times in human history.
If you are in God's hands, you are in the best, loving hands.