No its my fault. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I was hired by "New York's Finest"- The greatest local LE department in the nation if not the world. 9-11 was just another laurel on the head of my predecessors who have been to policing what the Yankees have been to baseball. While I I wish I had some additional options I can live with what has been issued.
When I hear the qualifications of my superiors and learn about the cases they've cracked and the crimes they've prevented over the years I understand how great it is to "be a part of it, NY, NY". I don't want to be anywhere else. We are the major leagues of LE.