Just a thought, if your not dead why is it soo late? It is only too late when there is no more time..............
I have a pretty healthy wife, but if anything were to happen to her, I might still consider it. But it better happen soon, because I don't want to be so old that I would be a burden to the community.
I would not even look back on the world. I would be very happy praying, reading, and contemplating our Lord. I do that anyway, but not on such a regular basis.
If I am not thinking of Our Lord, I am speaking of Him, and if the conversation doesn't go that way, I'm not interested - just let me go back to contemplating.
You have no idea how much I consider the time wasted, while pretending to be interested and carry on a conversation about other matters.