There it is. The "Christians" that turn you off Christianity are the loudest and those are the ones people see as examples. Which is what turns people off to the idea of a loving God. Sadly, until known on a personal level, the hunble strong witnesses aren't always as noticeable.
Perhaps my expectations of a church are too much. I want the country, basic Bible kind of church, without tons of fire and brimstone. I believe in confessing my sins straight to God and not to a priest or minister.
My church rents space on Sundays at a local school. It’s small, but very personal. I like it like that. I miss some of the activities of a larger church, but I like knowing almost everyone in my current church.