And now you accuse me of lying about my treatment. Read the book and then judge me. It will be in print this fall. Sorry, I refuse to be miserable about the fact that I have bipolar disorder. I rejoice in the fact that I earned the scholarships, completed a master’s degree, ran a marathon, and held a number of jobs, not, in spite of bipolar, but with it and sometimes because of it. And, yes, Jesus Christ has blessed me greatly in it. I don’t deny the intense pain I have suffered. Neither do I regret it. It has enlightened and driven me past my many failures. Praise God!
You are in need of professional help right now.
Go and make an appointment.