Have you started another church since the Lord closed the other door? Seems like you had a good nucleus for a work in a needy area and you had a good vision for the work.
I remain disillusioned and hardened somewhat over what happened and have determined that Im not fit for the pastorate until which time my disappointment and anger subside. Im not entirely confident God was the driving force over what happened, as the handprints were clearly not His. I realize giving in to my anger lends hand to the devils work, but theres a lot of healing that needs to happen before I can lead a flock again.
Its our hope to form our own 501(c)(3) and have her ordination transferred into that, so she can operate independently....thats on the short list for '10
addiitonally - that nucleus was rocked with the passing this past august of the other planting families husband...he was 37 and in excellent health - my best friend
so - understandably things are in a flux