I sure hope you aren’t really expecting any answers from the Catholics on board.
When I accepted Christ and decided to start regularly attending church again, I went to the Catholic church since that was where I was raised.
As I read more and more Scripture and saw bigger and bigger discrepancies between what Scripture said and the RCC taught, it became obvious that that was not the place for me.
After vacillating between that and an evangelical church where I saw people actually live out their faith with a great deal of integrity, something I had not seen much in the Catholic church, I decided to go where people took their faith and God’s Word seriously.
As I read more and more Scripture and saw bigger and bigger discrepancies between what Scripture said and the RCC taught..."
Since the mass is a service of worship and not a preaching session I wonder what you did to educate yourself to what the Church actually taught? Did you attend RCIA or have any dialog with clergy? You are a failed Catholic but perhaps it is because the Church failed you.