After 16 years I keep telling myself I should not be getting this down right now. SIXTEEN years. For two years I worked at a concert venue. I was able to forget during the holiday season, because my mind was occupied. This year, I do not have that option. I am in tears, often, and really just want to pull away from everyone. It's only in the last few days that this has hit me like one of those anvils hits Wile E. Coyote.
Even wrote about that day on my blog. Once I got to the phone call from my godfather, I could not write anymore.
My question this morning was, if time heals all wounds, why do some hurt more, instead of less, with each passing year?
Oh, my goodmess, thanks for sharing your story. Yes, time does heal things — through the grace of God — that is. But having salt poured into the wound certainly doesn’t help. Prayers for you.
As men forgive, so shall they be forgiven.
I have noticed that people who are extremely kind and fair to everyone are very deeply hurt when injustice is done to them.
Your post touched me deeply. Permit me to offer this: your soul is crying out for justice- and rightly so. The evildoer will receive perfect justice someday that will last for eternity. Your sad job is to wait on the Lord as patiently as possible. Perhaps the thought that the murderer will experience eternal, perfect justice will comfort you. The Lord promised us there would be little justice in this world. He also promised those who mourn in this world will be consoled in the next. Your suffering is not in vain and matters a great deal to Him. I am sure God loves your intense longing for justice for your father and He knows how terribly a just person like you is suffering under this weight.
Finally, thank God you are the kind of person who feels this pain so deeply. You are not callous and hardened; you are the sane one. Those who feel deeply also love deeply. You obviously have a great capacity for love. Don’t pull away from people; use that gift of yours that allows you to feel deeply to love others well. There is great satisfaction in loving others well.
I will pray for you. I hope you aren’t offended my my post.