Actually, want to add something about that gloriously infuriating book.
First time I read the Bible, I was bored. It was like porn without the visuals. “X begat Y, Y begat Z.”
Then I read it again. The second time round, I got a lot of negative commands. “Thou shalt not ....” I mean, seriously, it was worse than my mother!
Then I read it again. And again. And again. No one said I was smart.
And I noticed. It ain’t a book. It is a users manual for how to be human and live with God. I don’t know if I got some freakish magical copy that changes the text on the page, or if I got the intent - finally.
Now I read it for pleasure.
Your's is a common experience.