True, you didn't realize that. In point of fact, you still don't realize that.
You cannot realize a falsehood, no matter how hard you try.
You can bear false witness, but that practice is not recommended. I hope that you will refrain from bearing false witness in the future. May God grant you grace in your struggles with temptation.
Your rage and animosity are impossible to understand, what did I say about Law that set you off?