Please see my post regarding where the dead go when they die. They have no knowledge of what is occurring on earth and do not hear from the living.
As I said before, are you hungry enough for Jesus and truth as revealed by the Holy Spirit? Are you willing to lay down everything you know and love for Him, including your Catholic dogma? If your answer is no, then there is nothing more to say. If your answer is yes, then you have a wonderful journey ahead of you.
Are you willing to lay down everything you know and love for Him, including your Catholic dogma?What you're saying doesn't make sense to a Catholic. We "literally" receive Him [if we wish] daily in the Breaking of the Bread. Why would we walk away from such strength, such power, such love?