Daniel1212, it is beyond credibility that anyone can have such a documented belief in Mary—but that is what the Catholic church believes, and it is scary.
Much due to the psychological appeal of a heavenly mother (especially among those for whom Scripture is not supreme).
As https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heavenly_Mother attests, there is a strong psychological appeal to a Heavenly Mother. In Egyptian mythology there is the sky goddess "Nut." In the Ascended Master Teachings (a group of religions based on Theosophy) the Heavenly Mother is called Omega. Within Mormonism there is bwelief a Heavenly Mother as the wife of God the Father. In the Unification Church some members occasionally address God as "Heavenly Mother." Within the Unification Church sometimes God is addressed as "Heavenly Mother." The Korean group World Mission Society Church of God believes that Zahng Gil Jah is the spiritual wife of God making her the heavenly new Jerusalem Mother. In Hindism there is the worship of a Mother deity. Devī (the middle name of Kamala Harris) is the Sanskrit word for "goddess." The Rigveda calls the divine female power Mahimata (R.V. 1.164.33), literally Great Mother and also called Mother Earth. In places, the Vedic literature alludes to her as Viraj, the universal mother, as Aditi, the mother of gods, and as Ambhrini, the one born of the Primeval Ocean. Durga, the wife of Shiva, is a warrior goddess who represents the empowering and protective nature of motherhood. An incarnation of Durga is Kali, who came from her forehead during war (as a means of defeating Durga's enemy, Mahishasura). Durga and her incarnations are particularly worshipped in Bengal.
Collyridianism was a heretical Christian sect that worshipped the Virgin Mary as their Heavenly Mother and as a Goddess, which the Catholic Church condemned holding that Mary was to be venerated but not adored like God - though one would be pressed to tell the difference, and indeed, Mary seems to receive more popular devotion than Christ who created her.
Likewise the historical practice of Catholics has been to exalt Mary above that which is written. As the Catholic Encyclopedia states, "By the sixteenth century, as evidenced by the spiritual struggles of the Reformers, the image of Mary had largely eclipsed the centrality of Jesus Christ in the life of believers." (Robert C. Broderick, ed., The Catholic Encyclopedia, revised and updated; NY: Thomas Nelson Publishers, 1987, pp.32,33)
The practice of praying to departed saints and Mary was one that developed, helped by pagan influences, for Scripture provides no example of any believer praying to anyone in Heaven by the Lord, and reveals that doing otherwise was a practice of pagans, including to the “Queen of Heaven.” (Jer. 44:17,18,19,25). The Catholic Encyclopedia speculates that a further reinforcement of Marian devotion, “was derived from the cult of the angels, which, while pre-Christian in its origin, was heartily embraced by the faithful of the sub-Apostolic age. It seems to have been only as a sequel of some such development that men turned to implore the intercession of the Blessed Virgin. This at least is the common opinion among scholars, though it would perhaps be dangerous to speak too positively. Evidence regarding the popular practice of the early centuries is almost entirely lacking...,” (Catholic Encyclopedia > Devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary) Yet, as expected, it imagines this practice came from the apostles and NT church, but which never exampled or instructed it, and instead showed that the believer has immediate access to God in the Divine Christ, (Heb. 10:19), who is the all sufficient and immediate intercessor between God (the Father) and man. (Heb. 2:17,18; 4:15,16) To the glory of God