You know possumdawg I don't often post about my daughters death, and I really question myself on doing so this time. Why I did post it was to show how the bad decisions we make can ruin our lives and sometimes the life of others.
Certainly this young man had no intentions of harming his family nor mine. He had a drinking problem for sure because this resulted in his 4th dui accident, with this one causing a fatality. He had gone to a bar to meet his friends and cash his paycheck as they did every Friday night. This night he stayed too long and drank so much he never knew he hit anything until her bike crashed threw his windshield.
Because he was driving the company truck, he lost his job, he lost his wife because she lost any hope in him changing and this young man lost his home because he couldn't find another job.
He stood outside the hall where we had my daughters wake and asked for me. When I went outside he almost collapsed in my arms as he wept, I held his shaking body in my arms and wept with him. Because he couldn't get control of a problem he had he ruined his life and I still pray daily he has control now.
Many of us have weaknesses we are most aware of and can do something about, I was an alcoholic myself but have been sober for many years. It is not in my heart to hate this young man, nor judge him, but, it is in my heart to pray for his salvation.
Don't punish your self for what you were, rejoice in what you have become. I'm sure your parents love you and have forgiven you long ago. Keep your head up high for you have righted your wrong and Thank God for his help, that's all we can do .