You said it yourself when you said “Instead of being smart...” But yours is a rare case IMO. What this guy did happens all to frequently among the Hollyweird types and the excuse is always accidental overdose. It’s not, it’s stupidity pure and simple.
But it was an accident, I was fogged up on fever, could have been fatigue or anything else. Most of us spend most of our lives in conditions where we probably shouldn’t be doing what we’re doing, that’s how accidents happen. It’s no harder to accidentally OD on drugs than it is to accidentally run your car into another.