On the contrary, there are enough of us believers who were atheists at one time to understand your position, better than you realize.
While it is obvious that atheists think that they have believers pegged about why they believe, they are sadly mistaken.
There is one big difference between a former atheist who converted to a religion (especially an evangelical one) and a former believer who figured his way to atheism.
The now-atheist doesn't believe that there is some invisible figure giving him 'points' for trying to convert people over. Yes, there are the truly vocal ones, but you can ignore them if you choose, if they are authors. If they are Michael Newdows trying to make asses of themselves in the courts, well, they would have found some other way to do it anyway.