Please don’t feel bad. When we had to put down our 15 yr. old Emily who had cancer, I stayed until right until the vet gave the shot. My husband stayed with her through the end and said she went very quickly and peacefully. I stayed outside the room bawling my eyes out.
We do what we think we can, but I am sure your baby knew you were “there”. My husband and I cried together afterwards some more. But it was a relief that she wasn’t suffering anymore. Don’t kick yourself, sweetie, forgive yourself.
She had been really sick and the vet called me that morning and told me I needed to come down on my lunch break to tell her goodbye. My sweet boyfriend went with me. They put her in a room with us so that we could have some time, but she was yowling in pain so we got the vet to come in so we could go ahead and put her down. I was there right before the vet gave her the shot. I just couldn’t watch her die. My sweet boyfriend stayed in the room with her.