For someone who has referred to other posters in disparaging terms, calling one, for instance, “God’s press secretary” and likening their beliefs to “pink unicorns on Jupiter”, you are displaying remarkable sensitivity to a simple observation. That observation being that you spend a great deal of time and effort to refute a position which you claim is self-evidently fantasy.
I bear no personal animosity to you, even if you try (however ineffectively) to make fun of me. I expressed the belief that God would not wish the loss of any souls, yours included. Your response was scornful and called me “self-righteous.” (For what it’s worth, I find myself to be a horribly flawed and corrupt individual, a view I have come to only after fully realizing the Truth of salvation in Y’Shua. ..... I think it was Billy Graham who once said, “The closer you come to the light, the dirtier you realize you are.”)
Bottom line - In matters of faith it is particularly difficult to separate the belief from the believer. I think that metmom said something like that in a previous post, linking her life and belief to the reality of God.
No one is expecting a sudden recantation or conversion through this discussion. But as I look back at my own life, I think now of things people said to me many years ago, which “fell into place” only after time and life had softened me up enough to accept the Truth.
I wish you well in your quest, whatever you perceive it to be, and I pray that God will draw you closer to Himself over time - that the intuitive side of your intellect will show you the way home.
Once you get there, you’ll find you have a lot more friends than you ever thought you had, and you will find a peace that passes all understanding.
Over and out - for now.