This is very sad. He said he had no friends and no family and shelters won’t take single men.
I would guess that was depression and discouragement talking about the disconnect from friends. There was no reason for him to starve given all the soup kitchens and food pantries around. It was not America who abandoned him and named him worthless. The poor guy abandoned himself before he murdered himself. He named himself worthless because he had no money and no self sufficiency.
I wish someone could have helped him. God Bless him.
It’s really sad how isolated he was.
He talked about God and Jesus but he deprived himself of a church home and pastoral care where he might have found help and relief from his soulful suffering.
I can only imagine that as he was taking his life in the realization that this is a cruel and fallen world, he rejected church because of worldly lies about their nature.
Keep in mind that gays tend to be very superficial and obsessed with physical attractiveness. The dynamic is this: once you are over the hill, no one values you or wants to have sex with you. Older gay men are mocked and belittled by the younger, hipper, more attractive gay men. I saw this played out over and over when i lived in S.F.
I think this dynamic is at play here. After all, what gay man wants old, flabby-sphintered friends?