Philippians 1
21 For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22 If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23 I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24 but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25 Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26 so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.
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I’ve heard it argued that Paul was vocally discussing suicide.
I desire to depart and be with Christ
For some a daily struggle.
Interesting idea. We know Paul was tormented by the things he did to Christians as Saul of Tarsus.
I never heard that before nor did I ever read that into that passage>
However, I can see how someone could read that into it.