I’m either a late 2nd or early 3rd survivor.
Thank your mother. They give you a thousand reasons to let nature run its course. When my wife would not consent to putting the baby on a morphine drip after birth (let it starve to death), a doctor took me to a private room to reason. He said she was irrational and that the baby would be a burden for the family — especially his older brother. I was irrational too. Now they are playing violent video games in the next room.