I know I wouldn’t want to parade my grief on a worldwide stage and exploit the death of my loved one to advance an agenda.
I am one of those who will be in shock and break down much later.
But I still couldn’t keep it together enough to go on television and be interviewed.
Sometimes I believe some of the bereaved are trying to milk it for all it’s worth for financial gain or fifteen minutes of fame. Was it Trayvon’s family or Michael Brown’s that were all over the media and later got into some kind of brawl over the royalties for the memorial t-shirts?
I am getting more and more disgusted and disillusioned by the day over what goes on.
After our 18 year old son was killed, people said they couldn’t believe I took it so calmly. What was going on was a kind of PTSD where I relived the conversation with the police when they came to give us the bad news.
It went on like a negative of a video in front of my face constantly for almost two months. I could see people but I had to look through the video. After it stopped I did break down often.