Not trying to bait you, or challenge you or even to disagree.
I don't try to or even care to question "the peace which passeth all understanding"--in my poor faltering sinful way I am simply content to have faith in God and to try to leave His ways to Him.
But your posts are interesting and thoughtful and I am curious as to where your statement above leaves in you in regard to free will.
Truly, I'm not trying to be a wise guy. I'm just guessing that it is something you have given considerable thought to.
Thanks.
On free will - the short answer is I don’t know. I understand (vaguely) from quantum mechanics that the fact of laws governing matter may not mean everything is deterministic.
And since I believe we are spirits with bodies, not the other way round, there is the question of how our spirits and bodies relate; natural law may apply to the latter, but not the former. I’m not sure how to test that offhand. It’s a good question...