I stopped going to mass when we had two priests in a row who were molesting little boys.
That doesn’t make me hate God. I just don’t like the church.
As a youth, it was quite the opposite. My priest liked the ladies and eventually became too “popular”. He was replaced by another priest that sure had “that look” though.
You still need fellow believers for edification and correction.
Maybe you can form a fellowship with like-minded believers.
Orthodox Priests are allowed to marry and have children. But not Orthodox Monks who remain in Monasteries and visit the Churches infrequently.
I’ve always thought that celibacy in the Catholic Church was an attractive cover for gays and pedophiles. What other institution exists where they can they go that offers men and boys that are restricted from interacting with women?