You are trying to understand the Trinity. Too many people get themselves into trouble doing this. I would advise something simplier like eschatology.
Go ahead and try — it is mankind’s duty to try to understand the infinite Trinity with our finite intelligence even if, after a lifetime of trying, we only scratch the surface of this Mystery.
Knock repeatedly and doors will open.
The Trinity is understandable. So is God’s plan of Salvation.
The Trinity is SO understandable, scripture says it’s part of General Revelation.
Read Romans 1:20.
Romans 1:20
New King James Version (NKJV)
20 For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse,