Recently I was deep in prayer and crying, begging God to allow me to return to His radiance and experience His Love again as I miss it so much.
Most of us go through life seeking "true" love. I recall the Conversion Story of Roy Schoeman. In it, he describes the day he "fell into heaven" while walking through the woods. He writes:
I felt myself in the immediate presence of God. I was aware of His infinite exaltedness, and of His infinite and personal love for me. I saw my life as though I was looking back on it after death, in His presence, and could see everything which I would be happy about and everything which I would wish I had done differently. I saw that every action I had ever done mattered, for good or for evil. I saw that everything which had ever happened in my life had been perfectly designed for my own good from the infinitely wise and loving hand of God, not only including but especially those things which I at the time I thought had been the greatest catastrophes. I saw that my two greatest regrets when I died would be every moment which I had wasted not doing anything of value in the eyes of God, and all of the time and energy which I had wasted worrying about not being loved when every moment of my existence I was bathed in an infinite sea of love, although unaware of it. I saw that the meaning and purpose of my life was to worship and serve my Lord and Master, in whose presence I found myself. I wanted to know His name, so that I could worship Him properly, so that I could follow "His" religion.
Your testimony bears this out.
Roy Schoeman’s words bring tears of joy to my eyes.
For the same reason that a day in Heaven is like a thousand here, time does not exist in the same perspective in Heaven as here. When you remember an experience in Heaven it is always in the present, never in the past as a memory of an experience. You re-experience it in current time every time you pull it in.
It’s kind of like driving down the highway and looking at the moon beside you. You drive an hour and the moon is still right there beside you. That’s the way an experience of Heaven is when remembered here on earth.
In the early 1990’s I had many visions of what was coming for us. Due to the time distortion I thought they were going to happen almost immediately. I shared them with a few people at the time, as a warning. The visions are right now unfolding exactly as I saw them. Just that time really was distorted. The best advice is that only God can save us. That is the best preparation for these times we are entering that we can possibly make.