You have a weak God then, if your sin is greater than your god.
Sin does NOT kill the life of God in the soul and there's not one Scripture that even comes close to saying that.
On the contrary, where grace abounds, sin much more abounds and greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.
The Holy Spirit seals us until the day of redemption. Jesus promised to NEVER leave us or forsake us.
He knows our frame and remembers that we are dust. He doesn't throw us under the bus every time we sin.
The Holy Spirit doesn't *flee* anything.
And sinning doesn't mean we don't want God in us. It simply means that we're weak and sometimes give in to temptation that we shouldn't cave to.
Recommend you read Ephesians 1:13-14 and the Greek behind it.
If we Christians are honest, I would suspect the vast majority of us struggle daily with sin. I know I certainly do. I do not have as much victory over sin as I wish I did. The struggle goes on EVERYDAY. I remember what Dwight L Moody said. He felt like a lifeboat on the sea, to get as many people saved as possible, so we preach the gospel, while there is still time. The day is coming, however, when the struggle will be over. Remember, precious in the sight of the Lord, is the death of His saints, remembering to CAREFULLY define what a saint is. 😇