The Holy Spirit is a "dodge"?
Did you ever read in the Bible about what Jesus (again, you say you follow Him) had to say about this?
"Anyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but anyone who speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or in the age to come."
Matthew 12:32
That's awfully close to blasphemy. In fact, I think it crosses the line.
Repent!!!