Most Catholics who take their faith seriously are eager to downsize the Church. It is not a bad thing getting rid of members [like yourself for instance] who downplay everything powerful about the faith, leaving people [who listen to them] squirming [and screaming] to be fed by the Eucharistic Jesus...
I have been fed by Jesus for most of my life, and never once bent the knee to a wafer in a monstrance. I was just sharing some of the miracles I’ve seen with my granddaughter. She was so excited to know that Jesus is still there to talk to, and not just a character in a Bible story. Love my granddaughter. :)
Peace,
SR