At last, an answer! You do not offend me, but I am baffled by the fact that all you do is nit-pick at stuff, in the hopes of tripping someone up. That's the only reason I can see why you do that. It is not debate. It is not a sharing of ideas. As much as you want to understand my theology, I would like to understand why you believe as you do. We can't do that unless we are both engaged in debate over issues, instead of dealing with little booby-trap bombs lobbed in to derail the discussion.
As for your question, God does not will that I sin in the sense that He commands me to sin. Is the fact that I do sin taken into account in His Design? Yes. But the responsibility for my sin is mine, not His.
To the contrary, it is the elements of Calvinism that I stumble over, because they don't fit. That's why I question them.
Take a look around, of the Christians around here, the Calvinists have the strongest (and most prolific) contingency. They say I don't understand Calvinism, when I think I do.
Then they get offended when their explanations don't convince me.