After three rounds of chemo Arlene's cancer returned and we all knew that to put her through it again for another few months was not acceptable. To hear her dealing with it tore at my very being. Nothing could cut the nausea not marijuana not the synthetics without giving her tremendous headaches.
Her life was taken while she remained with us everything which was part of that special feeling people had when she walked into a room was gone replaced by a pain-wracked existence I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. All that gave her joy: raising her boys, her art, her students, her enjoyment of fine cooking and decorating her house was taken from her. She had nothing left.
I am so sorry to hear of your wifes struggle with cancer, and how she suffered....she was lucky tho, to have you with her through her trials...from what you say, I deduce that when her cancer returned, she opted to have no more chemo...and its just as well, as so often the tradeoff, of enduring the chemo, for very little time, is not worth it...
So sorry that you had to watch her suffer, but without you, it would have been worse for her...I hope your memories of her when she was healthy, will warm your heart, and make you smile....