I don’t understand this very illogical mentality but it is common. If she had lived her sex in the city dream she would’ve likely contracted some kind of serious std or any number of other types of problems. The thing about regret is the past paths we did not take always seem more appealing because we imagine only the best outcomes which never is the case with real life so even if some other imagined more ideal path we’d find regret especially looking at the world and life as this woman does. She would never find happiness and now she lets pining for some kind of perfect life idealized as a young woman keep her from being happy now. I don’t understand her challenges or the degree of “Autism” her child has but I know damn well I’d be showing off my child no matter how imperfect in the eyes of our world.
I have 6 children and my life is considerably more fulfilling than if I’d never had them. If I had been 44 without a wife and children I would be a failure in the eyes of my own, God, and nature. I know the modern world celebrates what is genealogical suicide as if life can be an endless ego indulging party. It can’t. If you live life devoid of doing the things that make life inherently meaningful like building families then all your writings will all that will be left and you and every thing about you and everyone of your ancestors who valued their lives and sacrificed for their children will be DEAD. You don’t even have to believe in God to understand this.
So it is your assertion that since at age 56 I am without a wife and children, that I am by definition a failure?
That's....interesting.