I can relate although I am type II and have it under control with glucophage. My wife requires morphine for her intense back pain (failed fusion).
I have a 120 day supply but unfortunately you can only get morphine in 30 day increments. So, she never has more than a 30 day supply. If the SHTF 2 days before her doctor appointment, she has a 2 day supply. :-(
That’s when I go rogue.
Grow poppies. Seriously, you should. The right kind of seeds are available by searching around the internet, at at least a few years ago. Often people who grow them will share poppy seeds.
Freepmail me for more info.
No need to go rogue. Do the best you can. Research alternatives to pain. Herbs, acupuncture, ect. just do the best you can. Then pray, God will take care of what you can’t take care of.