I may not have anything else to help you with, then.
It appears that your mind is thoroughly convinced of your own construction on reality.
You have been warned of the realities involved and their eternal implications. My hands are clean.
As is yours. I never asked for your help. My self navigation system is working well. I admire your Faith and dedication, as well as your tireless efforts in this research.
You and I have come to different conclusions. I put my Faith in God, and I hope he provides a class on this topic once we cross over to Him. I do know that I'm one of His, and he will take me home regardless of how this crap actually works.