It's not just you. I no longer tell people I'm a Republican. I find that embarrassing. Instead, I tell them I'm a conservative.
I recently got a letter from the RNC requesting a donation. I hand wrote on the donation card "When the RNC starts supporting conservative candidates I will consider donating to the RNC. Until such time, I will donate directly to conservative candidates or to organizations that support conservative candidates." I then stuffed it into the postage prepaid envelope and shipped it off. Maybe if a million of us gave them that message they would get the point.
The control freak mayor of NYC, Michael Bloomberg, is a Republican.
Whatever he is, I am not.
I've been a registered Independent since the GOPe ran Dole against Clinton because it was "his turn". That told me all I needed to know about the party.
The GOPe really didn't like Reagan, but I did.
Once Reagan was gone, they went back to being who they always were.