You think someone who is “truly repentant” would beg to be killed, if they were sincere about their crimes — if their faith was “real”? That is your test?
It isn’t at all what God says. No one is playing any fiddle here, my friend. It’s ok that you don’t understand about faith and repentance. And the God I worship isn’t capable of cruelty, the way you are defining it. He has compassion on the victims AND the offenders the same. He didn’t send His only Son to suffer a cruel and unusual crucifixion death on a Cross just for lies and hatred and stealing cars. His shed blood cleanses even the most evil of action or heart. It reflects the depth of the power and the love and mercy and grace of God. It is available to anyone who believes, and thank God, He knows His own by name.
That is the mystery of the message. I am so grateful that both Susan Atkins and myself can experience the same kind of freedom that faith in Christ offers us both — and offers to the world.
You said: There isn’t a soul alive who hasn’t hated another person who has done them wrong — or who has wronged a loved one. So we are ALL — according to Jesus Himself — guilty of murder, many times over.
So everybody who experienced a negative emotion is just as guilty of "murder" the same as someone who plunged a knife into the bodies of other human beings. You are a very disturbed person, and I do not believe other Christians share your sick views.