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Today, I returned to the abortion clinic where I aborted my babies 12 years ago
LifeSiteNews ^ | 11/26/12 | Kelly Clinger

Posted on 01/26/2012 10:53:52 AM PST by wagglebee

Note: Kelly Clinger, a performer and former backup singer for the pop star Britney Spears, had two abortions when she was in her early twenties. She blogs about her pro-life activities here.

January 26, 2012 (KellyClinger.com) - This morning I returned to the clinic where I had my abortions 12 years ago to pray for and plead with moms not to make the decision I made so many years ago.

As I pulled into a parking spot, I sat in the car for a minute and closed my eyes. I wanted to pray that I wouldn’t fall apart; but before I could utter a word, a movie began playing in my head. I could see that hurting, desperate 23-year-old girl who pulled into this very same parking spot in 2000. And suddenly I remembered it all:

Every room in that building.

The faces of the nurses.

The pictures of angel’s wings on the ceiling.

I remembered tripping on my way to the car because I was drugged and crying uncontrollably.

I even remembered the abortionist’s hands.

Perhaps I was being naïve, but I wasn’t prepared for the flood of emotions that came.

I also didn’t expect to be overcome with compassion for the mothers and fathers who were arriving one after the other and were convinced that killing their child was their only choice. I could tangibly sense the despair and the hopelessness they felt. I remember it so well.

I spoke with Robert and Lucia. They are both 18-years-old, and Robert just enlisted in the military. He said his father abandoned him and if they have a child now, he wouldn’t be around to take care of the baby. Lucia didn’t say much, but her heart was not soft to hear what we had to say. We asked Robert how he could take a vow to defend America and then his first act as a Marine was going to be taking the life of his own child. He came out of the clinic several times and heard our pleas. But he chose death for his child.

I spoke with Beverly who already has four children and said the child in her womb had no heartbeat. I told her we would take her to the hospital around the corner to be sure, but she refused. She even looked right at me as said, “I know that God creates life.” She came out many times to smoke and would cry at the truth of my words. But she chose death for her child.

Matt and I talked to a young couple that looked to be about four months along in their pregnancy. They are both atheists and at first they were cussing at us and saying they weren’t going to listen. After awhile, however, they seemed to begin to soften a bit. She told us that the doctor told her she was too small to bear children and she would die in childbirth. We offered to take her to a high-risk OB/GYN to find out what the problem was, but just as she began to talk to us, her boyfriend grabbed her and took her in. Forty-five minutes later, she came out stumbling and groggy as her boyfriend opened the car door for her. I couldn’t help but think “So now you decide to be a gentleman? You are about forty-five minutes too late.” They chose death for their child.

Of the forty-six women who walked into this abortion clinic today, two chose life. I know that heaven rejoices because those two babies were saved, but I wanted to do more.

At one point, one of the sidewalk counselors was pleading with the girls from outside the window. “You know that girl you were when you walked in that door? If you kill your child, you will never be that girl again.”

I began to weep…grieving that Kelly.

But then I felt such an immense sense of gratitude. While I will never be that Kelly, I am a new creation. I remembered Ephesians 2. I was dead in my sins, but because of His great love for me, God, who is rich in mercy, made me alive with Christ even when I was dead in transgressions.


Me and my hero, John,
who pleads for the babies every day.

As I left, I tried driving through my tears. How do you get past the heaviness that you feel for the babies and for the women who will suffer depression, addiction, suicidal thoughts, and lifelong regret?

However, once I stopped crying, I became very angry…like Jesus-turning-over-tables angry. My friend John, who prays outside of this clinic every day, said that he cannot get one church to support him. He wasn’t even talking about financial support…he was talking about prayer support, sending people to pray, anything.

This infuriates me.

Honestly, this makes me never want to step foot in a church again.

There are hundreds of churches within a 15-mile radius of this Orlando abortion clinic. While they are updating their offices, paying for sound systems, and preaching their fluffy messages, babies are dying…over 3000 a day.

Friends, hear me, we must shake off our dullness and be SILENT NO MORE…and STAGNANT no more!

I am angry with pastors who never mention abortion and will not lend a hand to people like my friend, John. I am angry with those who think that writing a check is enough and never think about actually doing anything for the unborn.

I am angry with Christians who do nothing to stand for the least of these and still call themselves Christians.

GOD.HAVE.MERCY.


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KEYWORDS: abortion; abortuary; epiphany; moralabsolutes; postabortivewomen; prolife; redemption
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To: BloodAngel

“Having a murderer speak on our behalf on this issue infuriates me”.

I understand you are upset with her decision to kill her two babies but think about this for a moment.... What this young woman has to say about her life is extremely important. She can illustrate her poor lifestyle choices and how abortion affected her life negatively. Plus, she can shed some light on just how abortion clinics and society verbally manipulate them into thinking that abortion is their only choice and a “simple procedure” to remedy a situation so she can go on with her life. Many times, people in a certain situation respond better to someone who has been in their shoes. Will a sixteen year old unwed girl listen more to a middle aged woman (with three kids and who has never had an abortion) or will they respond more to a younger person who made a horrible decision that she will regret forever?

If pro-life people ridicule, humiliate and refuse to accept a repentent person, then we simply show we have no feelings whatsoever to people who have made a horrible decision and changed later. Instead of embracing them into a community that is pro-life, should we shun them? If so, many other women will never discuss how abortion negatively affected their life. If this occurs, the pro-choice crowd wins... it solidifies the “it’s only tissue and not a baby” sentiment that is used so much.


41 posted on 01/26/2012 1:51:41 PM PST by momtothree
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To: wagglebee

That is a very powerful testimony.


42 posted on 01/26/2012 2:11:44 PM PST by metmom (For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore & do not submit again to a yoke of slavery)
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To: BloodAngel
I do not accept abortionist who have “realized” the error of their ways. This trash aborted 2 kids and now that she is suddenly calling for life we appluad her? Negative.

You never heard of repentance?

Those who are blinded by the lies of Satan are blinded. They can't see the truth until God opens their eyes. There but for the grace of God go I. Or you. Or any of us.

There is just so much wrong with your condemnation of her that I hardly know where to begin.

However, these words come to mind.....

Matthew 5:7 “Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.

Matthew 9:13 Go and learn what this means, ‘I desire mercy, and not sacrifice.’ For I came not to call the righteous, but sinners.”

Matthew 6:14-15 14 For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, 15 but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

Mark 11:25 And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.”

The fact we ask murderers to speak for us is disgusting.

And you're not perfect either.

43 posted on 01/26/2012 2:21:43 PM PST by metmom (For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore & do not submit again to a yoke of slavery)
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To: BloodAngel; Dr. Brian Kopp; trisham; DJ MacWoW; little jeremiah; Coleus; narses; Lesforlife; ...
Having a murderer speak on our behalf on this issue infuriates me. The fact we ask murderers to speak for us is disgusting.

God didn't think it was disgusting.....

Moses

David

Paul

44 posted on 01/26/2012 2:42:22 PM PST by metmom (For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore & do not submit again to a yoke of slavery)
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To: BloodAngel; Dr. Brian Kopp; trisham; DJ MacWoW; little jeremiah; Coleus; narses; Lesforlife; ...
Having a murderer speak on our behalf on this issue infuriates me. The fact we ask murderers to speak for us is disgusting.

Matthew 5:22 But I say to you that everyone who is angry with his brother will be liable to judgment; whoever insults his brother will be liable to the council; and whoever says, ‘You fool!’ will be liable to the hell of fire.

1 John 3:15 Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him.

45 posted on 01/26/2012 2:48:37 PM PST by metmom (For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore & do not submit again to a yoke of slavery)
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To: surroundedbyblue

Ditto to your wonderful reply!


46 posted on 01/26/2012 3:05:17 PM PST by bboop (Without justice, what else is the State but a great band of robbers? St. Augustine)
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To: BloodAngel

On the contrary, she is an incredible witness to God’s forgiveness and healing. It’s hard enough to reach women damaged by the Big Lie. They are too ashamed to reach for help from anyone because others will condemn them instead of help them find salvation through Christ on the Cross.

Thankfully, she doesn’t have to answer to anyone now but God.


47 posted on 01/26/2012 3:06:32 PM PST by Ladysmith (The evil that's happening in this country is the cancer of socialism...It kills the human spirit.)
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To: BloodAngel
Accepting it is promoting it.

No, it isn't.

Love the sinner, hate the sin.

48 posted on 01/26/2012 3:11:12 PM PST by Ladysmith (The evil that's happening in this country is the cancer of socialism...It kills the human spirit.)
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To: BloodAngel

Tookie Williams = bad example for you to use. He was so violent that when he died, guards and prisoners alike heaved a sigh of relief.

No one was safe from his murderous reach, neither inside nor outside of that prison.


49 posted on 01/26/2012 4:00:21 PM PST by Lauren BaRecall (I declare for Santorum)
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To: metmom
VERY well said.

Thank you.

50 posted on 01/26/2012 4:04:42 PM PST by ArrogantBustard (Western Civilization is Aborting, Buggering, and Contracepting itself out of existence.)
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To: BloodAngel

BloodAngel, This somehow seems personal to you? Have you been hurt deeply in some way that you cannot see your way to forgiving someone who reminds you of your own hurt for some reason? Your response suggests that there is something more to it than you have written.


51 posted on 01/26/2012 5:46:22 PM PST by Bellflower (The LORD is Holy, separated from all sin, perfect, righteous, high and lifted up.)
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To: BloodAngel
We "interject" God because He's giving us the ability to see it from His point of view:

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Luke 15:11-32
New International Version (NIV)

The Parable of the Lost Son
11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. 12 The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.

13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ 20 So he got up and went to his father.

“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. 24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.

25 “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26 So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27 ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’

28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’

31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’

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This young lady has been saved by our Lord and Christ - for that we rejoice. Please consider what God has done for her and marvel at His Glory and Mercy.

52 posted on 01/26/2012 6:55:34 PM PST by Ladysmith (The evil that's happening in this country is the cancer of socialism...It kills the human spirit.)
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To: bkopto

Paul is a Saint.

Saint Paul.


53 posted on 01/26/2012 8:39:21 PM PST by DNA.2012
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To: wagglebee

Both men and women regret abortions.
 
But the babies are with God.
 
We all need to pray to end abortion!

54 posted on 01/26/2012 8:43:49 PM PST by Salvation ("With God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26)
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To: BloodAngel
By telling them we accept them, we are kind of perpetuating the problem ourselves.

True. It says to other women, "Go ahead and abort, and when you have aborted as many babies as you want to, you can say that you've changed to being against it, and the pro-life movement will call you a hero."

Having a murderer speak on our behalf on this issue infuriates me.

As well it should.

The fact we ask murderers to speak for us is disgusting.

Yes it is.

And every speaking engagement that goes to someone who aborted could instead go to someone who faced tough circumstances and didn't abort.

55 posted on 01/26/2012 8:45:03 PM PST by DNA.2012
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To: BloodAngel
Abortion is murder, she has killed two people...yes, defend her.

Good point.

56 posted on 01/26/2012 8:47:10 PM PST by DNA.2012
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To: OneVike

It isn’t a matter of not forgiving, but rather a matter of not celebrating those who have killed innocent pre-born babies.

Putting those who have up on stages to be applauded by pro-lifers is appalling.


57 posted on 01/26/2012 8:50:17 PM PST by DNA.2012
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To: Shadow44

Every adult woman who signs a legal document to have a pre-born baby killed by abortion is 100% responsible and morally culpable for that action.

Spectres of alleged “coercion” are simply scapegoats invoked to cloak the fact that a million American women each year willfully kill pre-born babies of their own volition.


58 posted on 01/26/2012 8:53:18 PM PST by DNA.2012
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To: TalBlack

Lots of women have more than one abortion.


59 posted on 01/26/2012 8:54:52 PM PST by DNA.2012
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To: Retired Greyhound
What would you have this woman do?

Accept that she will never merit being treated as a hero by genuine pro-lifers.

60 posted on 01/26/2012 8:57:34 PM PST by DNA.2012
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