Your defiance against the absolute authority weilded by God implies that it was okay for His only Son to be butchered by men, but that the God who created all men has no such right.
I pray for you... and God loves you.
Can I ask you the question too, then: Why is this example of what I'd call the "Scapegoat Theory of Justice" a logical one? Can you even visualize a society whose justice system is based on the idea of offering up innocent 3rd parties to stand in punishment for the real criminals' crimes? Would you call it a just society? Would you call it a reasonable theory of justice? Coherent, even? I don't.
This tells me, as much as anything else, that Christianity was dreamed up by men of a very particular time & place.