Sounds like someone attached to a divine tractor and being dragged like a rag doll. We believe in cooperating with the Holy Spirit, as a patient would cooperate with a physician. We can always refuse. But in Reformed theology, one is ambushed and taken hostage by the Holy Spirit, and then frogmarched off to heaven, to borrow Mark's terminology.
As you see it. I will not argue with you about something you haven’t experienced.