Posted on 06/25/2010 8:16:18 PM PDT by Danae
About 6 months ago I made my first FReeper prayer request. I had just found out that my Dad Brian's Cancer had returned. This time it was in his lungs, brain and liver, and it was Stage 4.
Treatment started up again, Chemo and then Gamma Knife Radiation on his brain, more chemo. And then a pause. The brain tumors were growing again, and now instead of 3 tumors, there were 17. Full brain Radiation followed, 15 days of it.
Once through that, they found he had bone cancer in his neck. Treatment was done.
Through all this, my dad said: "don't listen to a thing, just watch me,". He knew he was dying. He was showing us how to do it with grace. And boy howdy did he do it... I have a whole lot to live up to to come close to matching that...
There were many visits, lots of laughing, and lots of listening. And more love than I ever knew existed.
My dad went from a little boy abused in every way... what he grew up with is utterly unimaginable to me. God bless him, that's just what he swore, that HIS kids would never know that kind of abuse. And by God he did that too. He never hit us. Never. He broke the chain of abuse. Which isn't to say that he wasn't still deeply scarred by what he had been through. He was, and he struggled with that for much of his life.
Until he forgave himself. Forgave himself and instead, came to love himself, and his parents, though they had passed years ago. He went from a creature of utter fear and every negative emotion that comes with fear including hate, to a man of love. Pure love. AMAZING.
My Dad passed into the arms of Jesus at 10:27 pm Thursday night. Just my mom and I were in the room right at that moment.
It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
We called my Brother, Auntie and Cousin into the room and we cried HALLELUJAH! Thank you God! He FLIES now and is free! Halleluja! Thank you for setting him free at last Lord!!
Thank you for the honor of being Brian's daughter, I prayed. Thank you for the gift of being able to say goodbye, and know my dad was and is so proud of me! Thank you for allowing me to witness my fathers re-birth into a creature of spirit and love. Thank you for the gift of being present for such a miracle!
I am in awe.
I wanted to thank all of you who posted and prayed for and with me when I first asked for the prayer request when we learned his cancer was back. I printed them all out and gave them to him. He was so moved! The support and strength we gained gave us what we needed to find a center, a balance, a place of LOVE. Thank you!
Remember this...... Please.
Where there is love, fear cannot exist. Where there is fear, love cannot exist. When you fear anything, stop, and think of what you love, and fear cannot touch you.
Thank you my FRiends. Go with God, and go with love.
Danae
Thank you for sharing this!
Beautiful post, thank you so much for sharing.
What a beautiful tribute to your dear father.
You have me in tears here, that testimony was beautiful. God Bless you and your family.
You’re making me cry.
Thanks for sharing.
So sorry to hear about your loss Di. You are truly blessed to have such a wonderful Father. My prayers are with you and had no idea you were going through this. God was good to give you such a gift.
Pray for America and Brian
My Mom passed away on April 29, 2006. I am one of ten and we all were able to be there and pray with her all through the night and to tell her goodbye that morning. On the evening of February 13, 2008 my Dad passed away. As he lay there (tough old bird) we told him that he has a very important date with Mom on Valentine’s Day.
You may think this is nuts.
That night, I laid down to sleep and was ahout to say a prayer to accept my Dad into Heaven. Before I could even say anything out loud I had a little vision.
It looked like a contruction paper cut-out of a Gentleman and a Lady holding hands. They giggled and danced and and vanished into the ceiling.
I think they were letting me know that it’s ok and I will see them again.
Danae,
I do not know you. I am new around here. But please know that you have moved me in a way that hasn’t happened in a long time. I am in tears. May God continue to bless you & may God hold your dad in the palm of His hand. I am certain that he is at total peace.
My beloved grandma died from Alzheimer’s last January. I was holding her in bed when she drew her last breath. It was indeed a gift to be there caring for this woman at the moment of her death. She cared for me all of my life & I loved her totally. I too couldn’t cry because I was filled with such peace & calm at her passing. I know exactly how you are feeling. When I gave her eulogy I was in tears but for myself, not for her.
You now have a buddy in Heaven (in addition to the guardian angel God has given you). I’m sure your dad will always be with you. Peace be with you.
Will do. God bless your entire family.
Prayers to you and the family.
I am sorry for your loss.
I am happy you are taking it well and you were prepared.
I have lost three recently to cancers.
It hurts.
Danae, I got a call tonight that one of my friends has called hospice in. He is only about 43, with metastatic CA everywhere. He is a strong Christian and one of the greatest guys you would ever meet. His name is Mark and this is very hard on his wife, a good woman.
I’m praying for a lot of people with cancer tonight, including your family. If anyone has an extra moment or two, please pray for my friend tonight.
...and also with you
Thank you for your thoughtful and thought-provoking testimony. I know your father is proud of you and is now at peace at the feet of our Lord Jesus. We don’t always understand why God allows suffering in our lives or those we love but we do have his promises, his great and precious promises, that he will be with us through every trial and that all things work together for good for those who love him and are called according to his purpose. How wonderful that you could be with him when he left this world, how equally wonderful will it be when he greets you there in heaven when it is your turn. He has given you a marvelous example of faith and trust and we are also blessed by your sharing this time you had with us. Thank you so much.
Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful experience, Danae.
We all must leave the mortal coil. It’s Who we take shelter of that counts. He will always be there for those who turn to Him; and then death is not a tragedy, but a victory.
Thank you so much for this, Danae. Sending prayers that your family is continually strengthened in the days ahead.
My Dad died of the same thing. Same spirtual journey. G-d bless.
God bless you and your family.
Sending a prayer up for your family and for the peaceful repose of the soul of a strong and wonderful man.
Danae, I didn’t know. Words fail........
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