This gal was seduced by an older woman as a teenager.
Lesbians who are refuge lesbians or not bulls are more likely to return to men for many reasons
Security
Children
Better more fulfilling sex
Intimacy from physical contact you only can get from intercourse
Etc
This is strictly anecdotal observations of sixty years
I’ve known a dozen attractive lesbians who went that way after abuse from males and ultimately returned to men
And contrary to what most would think they didn’t return to meterosexuals but rather alpha males...robust virile men
Which tells me they missed a nice rail.
The way that is worded, she is being hugged by a man and misses not being hugged by a man. "Dont'cha dare hug me, mister!" < /grammar police mode >
If, OTOH, she misses being hugged by a man, there is hope for her.