I was boiling, the only reason I didn't walk out in the middle of that letter was because my wife would have been embarrassed. Up until then I kept feeling like the church could be changed from within if good people worked to save it but that letter broke me. It was clear to me that the hierarchy in the church cared only about making sure the party never ended. I didn't walk out but I haven't been back since. Or rather, barely. I feel out of communion with the RC Church. I just don't know if I'll ever truly feel it's my home again.
Then the Father showed Him all of the people who would suffer for Him in the future. He saw a parade of regular people and saints that we know. It was then that He agreed to go through with the suffering.
It is a very difficult thing to watch supposed men of God do evil things, but we have to remember that we are only called to be faithful to Him, not to a priest who has lost his way.
Can you imagine how difficult it was for Jesus to face His torture and death knowing that it would all be lost on his priests who turned their backs on Him?