Do you own a Koran also?
You don't seem to that confident in whatever faith you profess.
Confident? I am confident enough to know that I am in my Lord's grip, that He won't let go off me, and that He will call me home either by death or rapture before the Time of Jacob's Trouble begins. I am confident enough to have lost 2 jobs when Christianity was supposed to be kept "hidden and private", knowing that He would take care of me and my family. I am confident enough to know that I don't need any works on my part to be saved, just believe in Him who gave His life for me and accept Him as the Lord of my life.