I do appreciate your prayers. Thank you.
God and I think y'all are worth it.
Suffering is not an easy trainer to handle.
Nevertheless, Christ suffered more than most of us and knows keenly our pains physical, mental, emotional. "He is touched with the feelings of our infirmities."
He has promised to be with us in the midst of our sufferings. And I have found that He is--whether we observe it or feel it, or not.
Somehow, HE IS comitted to working all the pain and suffering to our good and the Kingdom's good. Lots of times, I'd just rather have had Him work out less suffering.
Nevertheless, HE IS GOD AND ALWAYS WILL BE GOD. And He really does know best for all concerned.
My heart goes out to y'all in your suffering. I know very keenly it is NO FUN. I know keenly what it's like to cling to life, reality, hope--holding on to the last shred of the end of the rope.
You might research PRAYING MEDIC's books on Amazon. He has a lot of spiritual wisdom that might be of some comfort. He has also facilitated many dozens of healings--probably hundred--over his 30+ years as a paramedic.
Certainly ongoing prayers up. May relief come ASAP. May those around you rise up in courage and support you every way possible. That is one thing about suffering--it shows you who your true friends are and aren't.
Bod's best to you,