Our youngest died in the womb-too far along for a miscarriage, termed fetal demise. Had a D&C because I didn’t want to labor and deliver my deceased son alone at home-I had done it before with a baby that died early in the second trimester.
The doctor warned me that as decomposition had started he wouldn’t be able to remove him intact so I never saw him outside of ultrasounds. One while he was alive, and one after he died. But he was also required to send the remains to the state for an autopsy. I’ve often wondered what became of our baby’s remains. It hurts no matter what, but more so thinking that he may have been tossed like garbage.
The autopsy showed no genetic abnormalities, nothing wrong that caused his death. It was just one of those things. I’d be homeschooling a kindergartner this year if he had made it.
It was just one of those things.
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Your words reflect the pain... take comfort in knowing that your child got the call to heaven ahead of you.