I know exactly what you are saying. It’s easy to become discouraged.
The way I soothe myself is remembering that God is in control. All is well. That was one of my mother’s favorite sayings. (Thanks Mom.)
Try it. It works for me, maybe it will work for you.
Bless you for that. If God manages to keep my hands from certain throats I’ll have to call that more of a victory than I probably deserve. ;-)