Ma’am, if you can’t tell the difference between bring really raped and having an x-ray, if you can’t tell the difference between holding your hands up to shoulder height as millions do every day versus being treated like a criminal, if you think someone purposely made the machine false alarm on you, and if these things push you, as you described it, into such a rage and dis-associative state that you are seriously enraged to the point you were, even before you were “touched”, then I politely suggest, for your own sake, you either obtain help for this or do not fly commercially in the future.
Regardless of the cause, you are paying too high a price for the convenience of air travel.
TSA is not going to go away. Right now, you are obviously paying a very high emotional price for something the rest of us see as an inefficient pain in the arse that affords us at least a modicum of safety, and getting there in 1/10 the time.
Quite frankly, I am much more angry at the airlines increasingly smaller and smaller seats, less leg room and horrible service than I am at TSA foolishness.
I sincerely hope you can find away to avoid that pain in the future.
Good luck.
I never claimed I was raped. Perhaps you missed that part.