It’s full of pretenders yes
No, it is pretend, only you don't know you're pretending it.
That's why it can seem like a bad dream. It's not that it's not real, it's that everything you believe about it is not real.
Even if you can't see it, what I'm trying to tell you is it's not necessary or productive for you to suffer over what you're suffering over. THIS is not the thing to suffer over. If there is anything to suffer over, there is only ONE thing, and it only need be done ONCE, and that is the suffering that follows the letting go of the World, which is actually only the dying of the fake self and with it the fake world. During that ... it's possible to suffer. That's good suffering! At least it has a point!
The suffering you are going through now is cyclic because of it's cause, it will come and go for the rest of your life because you don't see the root of it.
The root of it is that you believe your version of The World to be true. Very Prideful! Most suffering actually comes from pride. It's not just 'bad people' who are sinners and suffer from it. But we all believe we know where we are prideful. We don't. YOU believe your version of reality. VERY VERY PRIDEFUL! And look - you're tired and dejected. Coincidence?
Pride doesn't mean you run around complimenting yourself. It means, at the level of assumption, unquestioned, you believe YOUR version. Very dangerous for a human to do this. VERY close to the original sin, though not exactly it.