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First article I’ve read in full in a while.

Boy am I in a lot of trouble :)

If the devil is real, and i think he is, then he took Full Advantage of the opportunity when my pop died when I was 14.

Mom was in and out of psych wards for 2 years and the others had lives to lead.

So by 15, I stopped going to church.

By 16 I was fooling around with girls and drinking 3 or 4 nights a week in the woods with friends.

By 18 I was breaking more serious laws.

Treated women just lousy...no hitting. just lousy.

Blamed God for my father’s death and that was ridiculous. But I still did.

And to then be asked to BOW before a God that took your father and forever altered your life.

I just COULDN’T

That worked out well :)

Pride and Hate and Anger and Despair and Pain were all used very successfully by the devil.

And at 52, I’ve had good times and bad but the devil must be dying laughing at how I let him take what should have been a great life and relationship with God and turned it into one filled with hate and vengeance and mistreatment of others. And worse.

Now he wants me to look back on those 38 years and fall into further despair by dwelling on his victories so he can laugh during the next 20 or 30 years.

He won the first rounds.

But I’m still here, God is still waiting for me to wake up, and what the heck, today is as good a day as any.

One thing about being locked down.

It gives you time to really examine your life.

And at least in my case, the car that I thought was ok needs to go into the shop for a lot of repairs!!

I’m 52. It’s late but I can make it if I run :)

buona notte and God bless